Category: English
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“Breaking the mould before we’re aching & old.”
When you grow up maintaining someone else’s emotions, you also grow up not having room and time maintaining your own. And if you happen to be a sensitive child, a crybaby, you end up swallowing a lot of feelings. “And I tried like you never, you left me to teach myself.And I cried & swallowed…
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How my world became small.
Hardest part of burning out is not the burnout. It’s the fact that you can’t just burn out, recover and continue as you did before the burnout. You have to change your whole life, so you don’t burn yourself out again. You have to make your world smaller. You have to remove unnecessary noise. You…
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Learning to read at 36
I learned to read when I was five. I was a talented kid. I don’t know when and where all that talent got left behind, but somehow, at 36 I have found myself in a place where I need to learn to read again. I’ve always loved reading. One of my most memorable weekends from…
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Trauma has no expiration date
Trauma has no expiration date. It does not go away the longer you wait. It does not go away the longer I wait. And in fact… it just does not go away. No matter how much I deal with it, no matter how much I talk or cry or process it. You can spend the…
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Retired.
14 years, 7 months and 20 days. That’s how long I survived in full-time work before I’m back on disability pension. When I was young, I was on disability pension until I somehow managed to score a job. Then went to uni. Started to build a great career. On paper I look great. International, studied…